Rights ~none~

I guess I am falling sick soon. Started to feel uncomfortable le... ... ... ... ...

haiz..

I guess it is so bad to fall sick and fredy seems to have no rights in falling sick.

fredy has no rights for a lot of things. Apparently, it seems that there are alot of things fredy can't do.

Let's take it for an example, fredy doesn't to be able to miss alumni practice even if fredy is sick. no matter what, fredy has to be there for practice (if not, there probably be some mess). fredy doesn't even have the right of being late, apparently, so many people can come late but only fredy can't. fredy also seems to have to be better in playing, whenever fredy play wrongly, it seems like it will a great "targeting" point for a number of people.

Also, even if sick, fredy will still have to go and teach. Even if sick, fredy will still need to face so many ppl, see so many people "face colour" (chinese direct translation). fredy has still need to finish what fredy ought to finish.

fredy seems to have to be solving the problem whenever there is/are. fredy seems to be a forever best back up and best person to give and finish work in the fastest and nicest way (example are programme booklets) when you yourself aren't able to do it. fredy has cleared up a lot of things when some people created a mess. fredy has to be there to oversee everything to make sure everything is correct, why can't other do this? fredy has to help out with standard of playing but there seem to be people that are not at all appreciative. fredy doesn't seem to have heard a single "thank you" from for helping them out. why why?

fredy doesn't seem to have freedom in a lot of things too. Don't you think so? fredy can't even have a single pimple on the face, when there is one, everyone will be like fredy you have a pimple on your face and treat it as if it is a big matter. This case has been happening for so many times and so many people making a big fuss out of it. fredy can't have a pimple? When fredy has skin allergy the other time, everybody will be like, your skin allergy is spoiling your face and blah blah. Apparently, when there is a little bit of thing changed on my face, the whole world will know. why? another thing is changing of showering foam, it seems that once I changed quite a number of people will know. people will start to compare about the previous smell and the smell now. fredy thinks it is absurd.

fredy looks like a girl, fredy knows. Is there a need for so many people looking at fredy? Those who have been going out with fredy often will seriously know the amount of eyes staring/looking at fredy. fredy seriously doesn't know what went wrong but fredy was like being looked by a number of people.

fredy has found it normal nowadays since fredy seriously doesn't have the rights for a lot of things and apparently, fredy is just like a product where people will take note, look, use and throw.

fredy wonders how many people will really think of how fredy thinks and what fredy wants. none? most probably...